I find it humbling to know that if a brother or sister in Christ is doing something that is wayward, the Lord will chasten them as He chastens me. 

“For whom the LORD loves He chastens, And scourges every son whom He receives.” Hebrews 12: 6 

Meanwhile, I should follow the example of I Thessalonians 5:14 “… warn those who are unruly, comfort the fainthearted, uphold the weak, be patient with all.” 

This puts a new perspective on how I view others. It seemingly makes it easier for me to be patient with them. Hopefully this fact will make it easier for others to deal with me. 

Next To Me by Sleeping at Last. 

I believe I have found a new favorite artist. 

There’s something about God’s providence that makes smile. What a comfort it is to know that He’s got me on the right path and the thing that I want is in His plan — It makes me want to do somersaults in my dorm room. I think I’ll pray with thanksgiving, instead. :) 

The door is wide open and sunlight is streaming through my windows. I will march forward!

God is so good. He’s so good to me. 

“Yet indeed I also count all things loss for the excellence of knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord, for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and count them as rubbish, that I may gain Christ…” — Philippians 3:8 

From now on, my goal is to find my confidence through Christ, rather than trying to find confidence within myself. For months, I have been trying to become comfortable with myself and my ability of “making things happen” while I have almost viewed God as a deterrent to my wants and self-esteem. Honestly, I’ve been going about it the wrong way.

My confidence should be in CHRIST, not myself. If I view myself as absolutely dependent on God rather than absolutely dependent on myself, why should I be so upset with myself when things don’t work out or turn out right? After all, He knows what is best (Romans 8:28). If I try to view myself in the way that God sees me, then why should I be so upset with my genetics, personality, and intelligence when it is God who so wonderfully formed me? Revelation 4:11 says that He made all things and that it is HIS will that they exist. That is some seriously good news for me — it means that God wants to keep me around. :)

As a highly ambitious person, it should not be my goal to reflect my adequacy, but rather to bring glory to God who has blessed me with every good thing (James 1:17). It’s not about me, it’s about the God who lives in me (Galatians 2:20). When something goes right and I attain something that I have been earnestly striving for, it should be God who receives the glory. In fact, doing things to the glory of God should be my life statement as a Christian! I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me (Philippians 4:13).

I feel like my perspective on things has finally taken a much needed turn. It’s still a work in progress, but I think I might be making the change that I need to take.

You are loved.

Some shape shifting that I am going through at the moment.

Social clubs don’t appeal to me that much anymore. I like getting to know various kinds of people and not just one type of people from a particular group.

Popularity is not much of an appeal to me anymore. I just want to get to meet people and form close bonds with some of them, as well as learn from them and help them in return. I would rather have a good name than popularity.

My education is becoming more of priority than it has been in the past. I want to learn, not just pass classes.

I need to make more of an effort in inquiring knowledge from outside resources rather than solely relying on my textbooks and teachers to teach me. This also means that I must make an effort to learn through outside experiences and work on collaborative efforts with my colleagues.

A more rigid and precise schedule is much needed in my life. Spontaneity can be saved  for weekends. 

Coupons are SO handy. Saving money and saying “No” to the things that you want is a rewarding endeavor.

I am prefer stability over the constantly changing atmosphere of college life.

If I don’t like doing something, I will fulfill my obligation to it then move on. There’s no point in doing something that emotionally drains me.

Silent time is mandatory. Reading books is helpful and fun.

I could see myself living outside of Henderson, TN right after graduation. Where will I go? Not sure.

Music Education isn’t a bad idea until I can get my masters in Counseling or Music Therapy.

You want to make excuses with me? Go ahead. I will take the hint and leave. I won’t come back until you make a change. It’s your call. Also, I won’t be real enough to show you how I feel if you aren’t going to be real enough with me to be honest from the start.I am not being manipulative; I’m protecting myself.

I’m not making someone a priority if they only view me as an option.

I’m going to keep on trying until something right happens.

I am going to be cautious in how often I have high bursts and try to curb them as much as possible.

Bonding with my church family at Bethel is a must.

Dream — Priscilla Ahn

I had a dream
That I could fly from the highest tree.
I had a dream.

(Source: pasak)

I am 20 years old now.

It’s funny how our perspectives change the older we get. When I was 10, I used to think that at 20, I would have my life completely figured out and that everything would be easy. I thought I was going to be an English major at Freed-Hardeman University. I would be 20 and engaged. I would have the same group of childhood friends. I would have my own apartment and be very independent.

Where am I at in life 10 years later?

I’m a music major at Freed-Hardeman University and I am trying to figure out if I should go ahead and get my degree in secondary education, then go to grad school for either counseling or music therapy. English is still a passion of mine, but I struggle to make my writing coherent and fully understandable. I’ve never been on a date and everyday is a constant struggle of keeping my feelings and this block of time from overriding me with anxiety. I am living in a dorm with a community bathroom. I’m independent enough… though being dependent on my parents’ financial support bothers me. My group of friends have changed much.

See what I mean? At 10, I thought that life was going to be a smooth ride by the time I was 20. I would have my life all figured out by then. Well, I am almost 20 and I can tell you this much: My life is FAR from figured out. But, you know what? It’s okay — for the most part. Hebrews 11 is the one chapter that pulls me through life’s ambiguity. God is faithful. My life is abundant and I am blessed.

They say that life is an adventure — I believe it. Life wouldn’t be nearly as much fun if you didn’t leave room for the surprises and spontaneity. Although I am not where I thought I was going to be when I was 10, at least I am at Freed and living a wonderful life. :)

Roaring 20’s, show me whatcha got. :)

So, so true.

How I’ve been feeling lately.